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[Love Mode] Blind Side
fandom Love Mode
characters Seiichi


You’re having dinner with a client on an ordinary Tuesday evening, your mind almost on auto-pilot as you recite your lines perfectly, when you realise that you can’t remember what Tomoki looked like.

The thought shivers into your mind like an ice-cold drop of water skating down your spine, and your next breath hurts from the inside, because when you try to picture Tomoki (as he was, the way you want to remember him -- not as he was at the end), the face in your memory is hazy.

“Is something wrong, Seiichi-kun?” the client asks, and you shake your head -- you’re fine. But you excuse yourself and escape to the bathroom, where you close your eyes and try to think.

He had freckles. A light dusting of freckles on his cheeks, his nose and the tops of his shoulders. And he had a heart-shaped face; his pointed chin would lift into the air in moments when he was unexpectedly stubborn. He had small hands, delicate hands, and a clear, ringing laugh, like the chiming of bells carried on a slow summer breeze.

And that’s all you can remember.

Something inside of you withers at the thought, shrivels up into something small and dry. You had known, the first time around; you had prepared yourselves for it, as much as anyone can prepare for death. But this -- this is another end, one that you had never expected to come, and you splash your face with cold water, straighten your shoulders, and walk back to the table and the waiting client.

“Seiichi-kun?”

“I’m fine,” you repeat, smiling automatically, and the client believes you, even if you don’t.


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A/N: Written on a tour bus in Beijing for love_mode's September 2007 challenge -- 'you're young until you're not, you love until you don't'.